Musings of a Mum…

Tonight I was able to visit with an old friend from high school. It was so hilarious how we came to be in touch after all these years, but that’s a story for another time! Anyway, our families got together for a barbeque and we stayed and played for over 5 hours! It was a lot of fun.

Being in touch with my friend again has brought back many memories. I was extremely close with his brother, who passed away about 9 years ago. We were able to talk about his brother: his life and his death, and how it affected my friend and his family. Not being all that familiar with the events regarding the death, I was able to understand a little bit more. It has given me some things to think about, for sure.

My friend who passed away went through a tremendous change in his life over a fairly short period of time. His belief system changed, his lifestyle changed, his friends changed. I’m sorry to admit I judged him negatively. During those years I was under the assumption that he “went off the deep end” so to speak. Tonight helped me see that he didn’t, he just went through some changes. I didn’t know him after he went through all these changes, but from what I hear he became a better, more understanding and less judgmental person because of them. I still don’t know much about what he went through, but it sounds like he became a happier person filled with peace and love. And that is how I am choosing to think of him when I reflect back on his life. I am a better person for knowing him, as he made a profound impact on my life at a time when I needed to feel loved.

As I think about my beautiful friend I am reminded that we all have the power to change for good. No matter the circumstances we find ourselves in, there is always a way to become better. My friend gained knowledge and enlightenment, which helped him see how he wanted to live his life differently. Because of that I believe he had a incredibly positive impact on many people. He is an example to me because he took a difficult path to find himself and help others along the way. He watched out for me when we were teenagers, and I sense that he is watching over me still.

I want to help and be a positive influence on others. And I want to feel less judgment towards others, while including them with unconditional love. Tonight I thank my God for giving me this friend. He continues to be an influence on me long after he has passed away and I am so grateful I knew him.

The end of a poem written to me, by my friend in 1989




1 Comment

  1. Renee

    More tears…. lovely sentiments.

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